Open Diary

I’m not dead, I’ve just been gone for a while. I can’t spill the minute or grandiose details of what’s been going on since my absence. Just know that things are changing. I feel like my life is in a little bit of an uproar right now. If I can survive these midterms and my mom’s birthday then I might catch a moment to breathe.

Right now though, I feel extremely overwhelmed. This time of year is always a little rough for me but I’m glad I have things to keep me busy this year (unlike last year when I had a bout with depression). Oddly enough, the things that are keeping me busy are taking me  over  right now.

It feels a little bit like drowning. The only time I feel like I’m getting air is when I pray and meditate. I have to force my self to sit and breathe sometimes. I feel like I just can’t get ahead. That’s it. Just drowning.

I don’t mean to be morbid. I’m just being honest. I am just trying not to worry about tomorrow because Lord knows, it has enough worries of its own.

Please pray for my sanity. I am having a moment. And sometimes I feel like I don’t have anyone to talk to. I’m not having a pity party. I’m not saying no one cares about me because I’m surrounded by wonderful people. But, they’re just as busy and preoccupied as I am.

I really thank God for being my best friend. He’s always there. And as the old folks would say, His line is never busy. 🙂

Wow, I totally just encouraged myself. Sometimes you just have to let stuff out! Now excuse me while I go talk to my DADDY.

-Kaisha

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2 thoughts on “Open Diary

  1. KAISHA HELLO YOU MAY NOT REMEMBER ME BUT MY NAME IS SISTER DILLARD I KNEW YOU AS A CHILD FROM MT MORIAH, LET ME SAY TO YOU STAY ENCOURAGE CONTINUE TO PUT GOD FIRST AND I’M PROUD OF THE YOUNG LADY YOU HAVE BECOME. LIFE CAN TAKE YOU FOR TWIST AND TURNS BUT KNOW THAT GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO I AND WHENEVER YOU NEED A SHOULDER TO LEAN ON LEAN ON YOU CAN LEAN ON ME IVE BEEN THERE YES I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL NOT A PITY PARTY SPEAK OUT LOUD YOU MAY BE HELPING SOME ONE ELSE TO DO THE SAME TAKE CARE AND MY NUMBER IS 817 682 7537 OR LEAVE ME A MESSAGE ON MY FACE BOOK IN BOX GOD BLESS

    HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEK!

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