I’m not dead, I’ve just been gone for a while. I can’t spill the minute or grandiose details of what’s been going on since my absence. Just know that things are changing. I feel like my life is in a little bit of an uproar right now. If I can survive these midterms and my mom’s birthday then I might catch a moment to breathe.

Right now though, I feel extremely overwhelmed. This time of year is always a little rough for me but I’m glad I have things to keep me busy this year (unlike last year when I had a bout with depression). Oddly enough, the things that are keeping me busy are taking me  over  right now.

It feels a little bit like drowning. The only time I feel like I’m getting air is when I pray and meditate. I have to force my self to sit and breathe sometimes. I feel like I just can’t get ahead. That’s it. Just drowning.

I don’t mean to be morbid. I’m just being honest. I am just trying not to worry about tomorrow because Lord knows, it has enough worries of its own.

Please pray for my sanity. I am having a moment. And sometimes I feel like I don’t have anyone to talk to. I’m not having a pity party. I’m not saying no one cares about me because I’m surrounded by wonderful people. But, they’re just as busy and preoccupied as I am.

I really thank God for being my best friend. He’s always there. And as the old folks would say, His line is never busy. 🙂

Wow, I totally just encouraged myself. Sometimes you just have to let stuff out! Now excuse me while I go talk to my DADDY.

-Kaisha