“What are you gonna do if you can’t…”
I don’t know. I haven’t thought about failing. I’ve been so busy focusing on ways to make things happen that the thought of them not happening never even crossed my mind. I don’t believe I will “fail”. I will not give up until absolutely every resource known to me has been exhausted.
If I want a specific kind of shirt, I will search every store I know of until I find it, or I won’t buy one at all. I’m the same way with food. I’m the same way with life. It’s all or nothing with me. I don’t have a backup plan for my life. I fully believe that my dreams are possible. Anything is possible. Maybe backup plans are the reason people stop dreaming and stop trying. It’s safer that way. But it’s dangerous to give yourself permission to give up, as well.
It’s discouraging working for something so hard and for so long with no end in sight and with not much to show for it. But, I just can’t stop. Everything I picture in my head comes to pass, eventually. Why would that change now? I cannot shake this vivid picture in my head. I know it’s there for a reason, and I’m not letting it go.
So, what will I do if I fail? Start over and try again. And again. And again. And again.